walk on jupiter

it is so weird to not have anyone to talk to. i don't have relationships with my parents or sister. i don't have friends that call me or txt me, or swing by to chat. i could if i wanted but this is the way i made it, the way i like it. i have never met anyone that can think like me. that understands me, has the same design of person. it is weird, but i feel as though having no one is the only way to see everyone. no one knows me. no one has ever had a real conversation with me. it is an act from both sides. never an actual thing, with structure or meaning. people are so fake, so different. The society of today has completely left earth. or maybe i'm on jupiter, but this isn't right. i stay alone because i am waiting. there has to be someone. woman, man, young, old..someone that i can talk to out there. someone that actually listens, not just hears, but listens, figures it out. NO ONE CAN FIGURE IT OUT. it makes me sad, so sad to even go out in the world, see how people react to eachother, to themselves. i sit and concentrate on trying to see beauty, feeling laughter or taste, hearing music no one hears, doing things no one does. away from people's negativity. i'm on jupiter and there is no one here. they can't see it! they just are not given the chance to go. to walk on jupiter.